So I told my best friend today that I’m despondent. It’s the first time I’ve really said that word aloud about myself and my situation. I’ve been putting on a very brave face about letting go but frankly I’m terrified and so incredibly sad.
And no, I don’t want to talk about it. I just wanted to say it. Journal it. Record it. I put it out there instead of holding it in. Now I hope I’ll start to really heal.